you said you'll find time, but where's the time, again?
is it ever going to come true?
or was i holding to something delusional, that it won't ever come true, again.
or maybe this time round, it's really goodbye.
there's so many things i wish i could share with you, but i can't. i wanted so much to tell you everything and anything under the sun that happened, just like how i know the stuff that i tell you, you will just be there to listen and to comfort me, telling and assuring me that everything's okay. unlike the rest of them, the feeling and impact's just different, who's just, not the same as you. i wanted us to be just like how we used to be, but i can't. it's crashing me inside. i tried looking for someone, someone similiar to you, but i couldn't, and i didn't. so tell me, what am i suppose to do now. because it seems like half of my world came crashing down, silently. it seems like without me, you'll still do just fine. friends still care for you, a whole lot. with or without me, it won't and didn't make a difference, be it then or now. maybe the future too. i guess, it's goodbye, to you, too.
don't -falter./
//Friday, October 23, 2009 6:42 PM
i type a whole chunk, only to realise this picture above best says what i've been trying to put forth.
think of those hard and crucial times you guys shared with each other, isn't it all worthwhile? doesn't that mean something? so why are things so screwed now? it's heart wrenching to see all these happening.
i think i'm such an idiot. seems like i care so much, worry so much, for nothing. because ignorance and not caring are all i'm getting, seeing. i feel and look like a fool. i wish i can choose not to care, cause ultimately i'm not exactly/really involved. i wish i wouldn't be so bothered by it. perhaps i should really make myself invisible to all problems, all matters. perhaps that's why "ignorance is sometimes a bliss" such sentence, exist. perhaps i would be happier off if i ignored and not think about it. so why still? because you're all my friends. tell me why i won't be affected.
it's only the first week. and all these things are happening. i saw/knew it coming, just that i didn't know it would be so fast, now.
don't -falter./
//Thursday, October 22, 2009 11:16 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:
to the girl who ALWAYSSSSS says that she's cute.
don't -falter./
//Wednesday, October 21, 2009 10:43 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. DAO ((:
please (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((: X INFINITY !
nothing can get you, this PRO HANDSOME DAO guy down!! (:
let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go let it go
don't -falter./
// 1:27 AM
give me an answer.
tell me a reason to start believing.
i miss everything, all those times. i need a break, i need a getaway.
don't -falter./
//Saturday, October 10, 2009 11:07 PM
7hours.
when simple things like just encouraging, just a few simple words of encouragement from you, i could fork out that extra, that extra surge of effort out. it's just that simple. but how often do i get? even when i'm so drained, physically tired, like there isn't any more energy left in me was felt, that i thought i couldn't be any more faster or better and that what i'm showing is already my best. but when that encouragement came, i totally felt the difference, that sudden energy released.
tired of trying, tired of always being the same. because no matter how hard i try, how hard i put in the effort, thing's always the same, and will remain as it is.
i'm tired. ):
and i lost my hairband damn it. less than 3 days old. !$%&?!!$?%& i hate losing stuff. damn chui, everywhere also chui. goodnight world.
don't -falter./
//Wednesday, September 30, 2009 10:29 PM
how often do you get to train with only one of your teammate, didn't have dinner, and headed home alone ):
don't -falter./
// 2:53 AM
honestly, what's left?
i don't see where i'm heading to now, at all.
i'm not being pessimistic, but only worrying and thinking about realistic issues that i have to.
worse, there's nothing to fall back on. nothing.
don't -falter./
//Tuesday, September 29, 2009 11:14 PM
we've always been invisible to you.
no?
don't -falter./
// 1:02 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA TRUSTED FRIEND(:
(sorry cin you're in this picture hehehe)
or maybe i should change it to "MIA FRIEND" / "only care about GF FRIEND".
HAHAHAHA
don't -falter./
//Monday, September 28, 2009 9:49 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOILEY BUDDY! :D
doubt you will see this though. hahaha
don't -falter./
//Saturday, September 26, 2009 10:16 PM
同人不同命。
don't -falter./
//Wednesday, September 23, 2009 11:51 PM
chuittm
life been sucky. i don't know what other words that's available to put into usage. other than vulgarities. but i'm definitely going to skip that, for now.
chui shoulder, chui wrist, chui elbow, now even chui ears. then pek chek only. TMD.
if you want to bring me down, i suggest straight away. INSTANTLY. thankyougoodbye.
don't -falter./
// 8:46 PM
THIS PICTURE IS SEXY/HOT/PRETTY/FUNNY, ALL IN ONE! VERY HARD NOT TO SHARE!! :DDD
HEHEHEHE! BUT WO HAI SHI HEN AI NI DE IRRITATING SIEW! i know you do too! :D
<3!!!
but please don't whack me! HAHAHA!
don't -falter./
//Tuesday, September 22, 2009 10:37 PM
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JSCPRETTY!! :D <3!
hahahahaha!
don't -falter./
//Monday, September 21, 2009 4:33 PM
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY SERENE.C! ((((:
LOVE! (:
don't -falter./
//Sunday, September 20, 2009 11:43 PM
exactly.
now, it's about 3, no longer 2 anymore. i need time.
